.:WFAF:. Chapter 34

.:When fallen Angels fly:.

Chapter 34
How many days have passed? One day? Two days? I can't tell. No wait, I remember. It has been two days. It must have been because I twice felt Matthew's presence next to me. Since I got permission to sleep in Matthew's bed, I haven't been anywhere else. I just keep on lying under his warm blankets. Sometimes I get blessed by sleep but most of the time I'm only staring at ceiling, trying to think of nothing, trying to forget everything. But no matter how hard I try, I can't forget Arthur. The mild wind outside sounds like him whispering sweet things. The soft blankets I'm lying under feel like his perfect skin. And no matter where I look, it feels like I'm always looking into his beautiful eyes. If I'm asleep I only dream of him. Some dreams are sweet memories but most of them are about Arthur leaving me. My last dream was really beautiful. Arthur was an adult and gave me a little kiss on my forehead. Then he stretched his breathtaking wings and flew away to the twinkling stars high up in the night sky. I wanted to call his name. I wanted to say I love him. I wanted to stop him from going away from me. But I couldn't do even one of these things. Why couldn't I do it? Why am I this weak?
"Please somebody. Give me strength," I whisper.
Who am I kidding? There is no one to hear my prayers, no one to give me a hand.
"The keys," I suddenly hear the voice of my nightmares whisper in my ear.
I immediately sit up. Shocked I look around me but there is no one to see. Maybe I'm not as alone as I thought. Then I look at the keys laying on my nightstand. I come out of Matthew's bed and take them in my hand. The metal feels really cold against my skin but it's not like I feel strength go through my body. What does he want me to do with them?
"Isn't it obvious?" he asks.
I'm able to make a little grin.
"I thought you weren't going to help me anymore, Ivan," I say.
A deadly silence falls. Maybe he's shocked to hear me saying his name or maybe he's just mad at me, but I don't care. He just needs to give me answers and stay out of my life after that.
"You think getting the answers from me will be that easy?" he says with a mocking undertone.
I don't know exactly where he is but I turn around so I can look at where the sounds of his voice came from.
"I'm not saying it will be easy. I'm just hoping it would be that easy," I say.
I can hear his sadistic giggle.
"Keep on dreaming," he says.
I get really irritated by him. At first I was scared of him of course, but now that I got to know him better he just keeps irritating me.
"You should be happy I'm helping you again. You're pathetic," I hear him say behind me.
He must have changed places. Just to creep me out of course. But I'm not playing this game. I keep on staring at the spot I'm staring at right now while talking to him.
"Speak for yourself," I say.
Again a pause falls but this time it's not interrupted. Somehow I get the feeling he left. That's nothing to be sad about. Of course I could have tried to get more information out of him but I'm just glad that he left. I look at the keys in my hand. There must be something with them. Does Ivan want me to look for the doors they can open? I guess so, but if I'm going outside I should change clothes first, I'm still in my night suit. Just when I wanted to go to my own room to take some clothes, I see the pile of clothes laying on the foot of Matthew's bed. When I have a closer look I see that they are mine. Matthew must have placed them their when I was asleep. He's such a sweetheart.
I pull out my shirt, sweatpants and underwear. I drop them on the ground, I will fold them up later. On the moment I reach for my clean underwear from the pile I get the shock of my life.
"Thought you were alone, didn't you?" Ivan whispers in my ear from behind me.
Shocked I turn around but because of my clothes on the floor I slip and fall on my back. I say some nasty words while trying to sit up. Why do I always fall on my back. It hurts! Then I notice the person standing in front of me. Finally he showed himself. He's the same as I remember, the same as in my nightmares. His black wings are just as breathtaking as always and his purple eyes still look right into my soul. I feel figuratively and literally naked. He has an little amused smile on his face while looking down at me. He takes a few steps forward and bends his knees. He's so close. I want to run away, but I'm sucked into his purple eyes. He lays his hand on my head. Gently he strokes through my hair. After a few second his fingers go lower, follow my jawline and stop by my chin.
"Remember our kiss?" he asks.
I can't give an answer. I can't even breath.
"I'm sure you do. It was our first. It's a shame it had to be done through Francis' body though," he whispers.
I suspected Ivan to have taken over Francis' body, but now I'm sure. I don't know what Ivan's intentions are but I have the feeling it can't be anything good. Ivan smiles his little creepy smile again.
"You got that right," he says.
He lets go of my chin and lays his hand on the place of my heart. The cold of his hand makes his way through my chest, making my whole body shudder.
"So what to do now?" he asks while drawing little circles with the fingertip of his forefinger on my chest.
Every time he finishes a circle I feel cold energy go through my body. Every time I feel the energy my body responds by shivering. It must be some sort of spell, it only can be.
"No Francis, no Matthew and most important no Arthur, to stop me from doing everything I can do with you and your glorious body."
"No…" I whisper.
"Yes," he says still drawing circles on my chest.
"This time I'll make sure to take your heart. Today it will be mine, even if it means ripping it out."
I would swear I felt his nails scratching my chest open and ripping my heart while he said that, but as fast as I got that feeling it was gone. Hallucinations… he's playing with my brain. Playing with me.
"But of course that won't be necessary if you are willing to give my your heart, don't you think?"
Ivan stops drawing circles and lays his hand on my heart again. I feel how all my energy is flowing away. It's like it's sucked out of my body. But I can't do anything about it. I can't even protest.
For a moment I'm thinking of giving it all up. My heart? He can have it. My life doesn't have a meaning without Arthur anyway. But then I suddenly feel the cold metal in my hand. I'm still holding the keys, there is still hope. I have to get out of here and find Arthur, but how? Now that I remember the keys another thought comes up.
"If you want my heart, then why bother helping me anyway?" I asks.
Again Ivan smiles that sick smile of his.
"Can't you tell? I'm just playing with you," he says. "You know, I see life as a game. And you Alfred, are what the whole game is about."
Confused I stare at him. That just makes no sense.  
"No sense?" he asks. "Well even if it doesn't make sense, I will do everything go get all my opponents checkmate."
Checkmate? And I thought I was the crazy one.
Suddenly I feel how I get stabbed from behind. I slowly turn around and look right into the face of Matthew. I feel how warm blood is flowing along my back.
"Matthew…" I say with trembling voice.
As suddenly as Matthew appeared he disappears again. The pain and the knife in my back are gone. There is no blood either. I slowly turn my head back. Ivan lays his other hand on my head. Just as before he starts stroking it.
"You the crazy one?" he asks.
I see how the whole room turns black. Everything in spite of Ivan and me is swallowed by darkness. I hear different kinds of voices. Some are begging to not be killed, some are screaming, some are whispering my name.
"Who knows…"